30 day challenge

I tried to do another 30 day challenge- but since that cost money and this one doesn't- I hope to stick to this one!

Day 1 :Discuss your current relationship, if single, discuss how single life is.

It's complicated.

Wow, that sounded like something horrible off of facebook or something, but it's true.  I am technically single, but not from lack of interested parties.  To me, love should be so simple, but it always seems to come out so complicated.

I love the freedom of being single.

I hate the longing and loneliness.

But what I want and what should be/are/deserve feel like completely different things.  I'm still very conflicted in regards to my feelings toward love.  I've always wanted the fairy-tale romance (who doesn't?!)

but

I know how things go as well.  You can't exist on love alone- it doesn't get you through anything, there has to be something more (think Little Mermaid- I want more......!)

The sad thing is- I can't even tell you what I think is missing.  I can't describe it, I can't put my finger on it.  It's just something that is obviously missing.

I guess it doesn't really matter.  I'm not in any hurry- there are days I feel like I should be, but I'm really not.  I just plan to take it in stride for the time being.  I don't want to miss out on something great, but I also don't want to jump in head first and find out there's no water.

What's missing?!