Day 28 - something that you miss
I only remember having it a short while. It's a very fleeting thing. Maybe it's just me. There are days I can fly out of bed with sunshine, rainbows, and dreams til the horizon. There are also days where I'll never move, imagine I'm a slug, and simply wait for the next day to try again.
You wouldn't believe it- but I felt this way at Philmont too (what?! No!!) I did.
But.
There was few days that wished could last forever. If I was trapped for eternity in those days, I would forever be content and happy.
Oddly enough, my husband wasn't even there yet.
Through the combination of days, we had a small band with sing alongs, homemade fired cobbler, dancing, and buffalo burgers. My husband was safe at home doing his own thing (but I knew he was there), I had my best friend Elizabeth, and my wingman, Will. We would hang and talk. Gaze at the billions of visible stars. I didn't have a care or worry in the world. I was actually happy- truly, genuinely happy. I had no wants, no fears, no cares. I was able to live and cherish the moment for what it was. I would walk over to the fountain on the green- perfect weather, water-rushing sound, those billions of stars. I could sit on that little bench all night- and I went pretty late sometimes. Just feeling so calm.
This is something that I truly miss.
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Not that anyone will really see this. There's something that I realized today that I have missed in the past and will miss once again...
ReplyDeleteit's that feeling, the anticipation. I've now had a couple long distance relationships. There's a feeling between the planning and the waiting and finally the driving there that I'll miss.
Once everything's planned or even in the planning stages, there's this worry/anticipation. It's almost like a daydream where you play it out in your mind how you hope the events will go. It's a dream.
After the dream comes the actual drive, the 'are we there yet?!' excitement that comes. The drive is too long, your patience is too short- you've been waiting for this long enough!! Why isn't it here yet?!
Next, it's arriving to their town. You're sooooo close!!! It's just a little further. Why is this light red?!?!?! Doesn't it know I have somewhere to be like RIGHT NOW?!?! How dare you light!!! You're separating me from the person that I want to be with!
Finally, it's meeting eyes with the person. The first sight. Especially with long distance relationships, it's the subtle changes between you. It's heart warming. Beautiful. Amazing. It's definitely something that I will miss.... *hugs*