Past Men

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I always wondered why my past relationships were always a bust, 'they' do say that history repeats itself.

In no particular order, men from my past that were important and not necessarily boyfriends:

Tony: stalker #1- there's nothing like starting young since we liked each other in 5th grade.  He moved away but continued to call every few years and even made some visits- it was weird. 13

Josh: asked me to run away with him my senior year- I would've died especially since I had that tumor thing my senior year. 16

Chris D: he even filled out a paper with legal jargon saying that he would wait for me to turn 18 to marry me, crazy, right?  I was a sophomore!  16

Sean M: stalker #2- he tried to commit suicide on our Disney trip because I didn't love him. 16

Brian E: we were best friends for nearly a decade, fought over something one of his female friends said about us, then when he wouldn't compromise to visit me when I flew half a continent over and wanted to visit- we stopped being friends and we live in the same city currently.  Nice.  Also, during our friendship, he always talked of making it more than just friends because he loved me so, but couldn't cope with my religion. 17

Brian B: we had a fairytale.  It would've been perfect if I didn't follow my mother's advice and dated other people and him, gotten sick, or if he wasn't agnostic. 15

Red: yeah... not one of my prouder moments with this convicted felon. 17

Rob: dumped me the day of my grandfather's funeral. 19

Tristan: trying the whole Senior/freshman thing while losing my driver's license at the same time!  He dumped me right before I was hospitalized and missed the rest of my senior year. 18

Jon: I'm not going to talk on this one- but the people who should know, do. 20

Dan: my first kiss- told everyone that I was committing suicide at home when I was home sick. 15

Sean W: turned out to be gay and I was the last girlfriend. 15

Ryan: turned out to be gay and I was the last girlfriend. 16

Chris: turned out to be gay and went out with Ryan at a state competition (yeah, dumped at state finals). 16

Rich: I purchased my own engagement ring and he told my father that he had saved it from his Marine days when his girl left him. 21

Matt: I was kicked out of his house by his mother when she found out my religion and he wouldn't stand up to her. 21

Other Matt: he lived with his baby's mother upstairs and wouldn't stop hitting on me- there were a few instances of kicking him out of my apartment at knifepoint. 24

Ernesto: seemed nice enough but quickly became overpowering and tried to get with me and was forced out of my apartment at knifepoint. 25

Chris F: always said we would be together if I wasn't Mormon and would party some more (I don't like to party like that, like ever).  He's now living his dream in Greece. 19

Chris W: he was wonderful until a third person came between us then he wouldn't let me straighten out the confusion. 23

Tim: there's nothing like a backstabbing coworker. 23

Lastly, Steven: we had a great first few months together, but then work, cheating, accusations, school, and life in general ripped us to shreds. 22

I had great moments with each of these men, but some major internal damage.  Sadly, I know I'm missing some that contributed to my craziness.  Sorry.  It's any wonder that I even try again.  I guess I never stopped believing that I could have someone in my corner- oops?  Time to move on.  I'm single- and I could be for eternity!  According to one of my past Sunday school teachers, that's where the angel servants come from.

It's any wonder I can't keep a stable relationship.  It just proves to me that Ross really needed to move on.