It's been awhile since I've written anything. Life is truly remarkable and I feel inspired to write. We moved into our new 2 bedroom apartment. We lost our babysitting job with the girls because out apartment doesn't have two doors (although their house doesn't have two doors). We broke the water heater and have been without for 4 days now. And it's a week and a half until our Temple Sealing. The Lord has been so merciful and I would be an even worse servant if I didn't express my thanks to Him.
It felt that everything was headed downward in a crazy spiral. We were bleeding money since I couldn't find a job and Steven's wasn't sufficient. I had my identity stolen and lost the majority and owed my bank in Ohio. I was trying to leave it to just gain interest. We found his name, address, and some aliases he used- but since he wasn't from the US or an ally- there was nothing we could do. Everything seemed to be going wrong, but today, whether it was my attitude or inspiration or an angel sent from God, everything changed.
Although I couldn't fix the identity thing, the Daultons loaned us money to fix our credit/debit deficit. The water heater is being fixed today. We got credit cards that will help us immensely in the future. I passed my last nursing exam (though just barely) and we're getting sealed in less than two weeks.
Sis Richins (our Temple Prep Class teacher's wife) said that the two years (one before and one after) were the hardest as the devil tries his hardest to lead us astray. I admit, I was headed down that road. I was horrendously discouraged. As we talked, they (the teachers) mentioned the hardships they faced and I don't feel so alone.
Today, was a turning point. I had two patients today in my last clinical this semester. My one patient was tired and worn. He asked me to leave him alone. He refused a bath and even changing his bedsheets. But the other, she was a doll. Her initials were MD (no pun intended). We clicked instantly. We talked about everything. She told me about her three children. She had a hysterectomy at 23- otherwise she would have had more. Blacks, back in the day, were discouraged from having children so the white Dr that couldv'e saved her ovaries, took them out. She wasn't bitter in the slightest. She told me about her life with her ex-husband and how much she loves going for cruises. She also told me that she used to be a nurse, but had 3 patients die in her arms in 1 week. She said that she was on top of the bed doing aerobics trying to perform mouth to mouth resuscitation to the best of her ability. She took a hiatus after that, but never returned.
She truly inspired me. She was one of the kindest people. She complemented me to every person who entered the room. She told me all sorts of tidbits. She was so full of the Spirit, kindness, and love- I feel atop of the world. She told me that I should never say I don't deserve my husband. I told her how wonderful he was and how I don't deserve his wonderfulness, but she told me that I deserve every ounce of his love. I should never sell myself short. I am worth everything plus. I told her my guilt for usually snapping at him for something. She told me that it was ok- but I need to talk to him in nicer ways. Her communication was impeccable. She said that we would be together forever. I truly believe her. She told me to record my lectures and listen to them at every convenience. She was impressed that I was so domestic even though she was domestic at my age, but only because she had her 3 small children. She told me to never give up, that I can do anything. At the end, she told me that I inspired her. That I am a God-driven force to be reckoned with and that I am truly remarkable. She said that she was going to tell my story to everyone- I am a beacon of hope and peace to everyone I surround.
I am so grateful for everything that I have been given. I'm thankful for all my opportunities- for all the people I've met and all those around me who lift me up and strengthen me. I'm so happy that I have the opportunity to be sealed on this Earth and to be married for all the eternities. I'm incredibly thankful for my husband and everything he does for me everyday. I'm thankful for the job opportunity that was extended to me on the drive home today and all the blessings that it will bring to us. I'm thankful for my teachers and the patience they have with me. I'm thankful for my past for shaping me and all the sacrifices and blessings given on my behalf to get me where I am today. I'm thankful for my faith that helps me believe in all people and to truly view people as beloved children of our Father in Heaven. I'm thankful that I'll have a chance to see Marion again- and that she will have a perfected body- and I'm thankful for the opportunity to express to her then, what an impact she made on me just now. Even if it's just for a second, it's a time I'll never forget.
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